tw: sensory overload // tim cook just launched 'apple stillness' and i am finally entering my paused-existence era

i need everyone to take a collective deep breath because i am actually shaking right now. first of all, trigger warning for the concept of 'functioning' and 'being perceived.' i woke up today and saw an email from apple about their new product launch and i genuinely felt like i was being physically assaulted. like, who gave them the right to slide into my inbox with that kind of energy? sending an email is literal violence and my nervous system is still recovering from the breach of my peace.

but then i actually read the details and i think i've found my new personality. tim cook just announced 'apple stillness,' which is essentially a high-tech sensory deprivation sphere that you just... slide into. it uses some kind of proprietary bio-sync technology to put your consciousness into a state of total suspension. you aren't sleeping, you aren't dreaming, you're just *not*. you just stop. for a monthly subscription fee (which is honestly a bit toxic considering the economy is a dumpster fire), you can schedule 'stillness windows' where you are legally and biologically unavailable to the world.

i am literally sobbing because this is the first time a piece of technology has actually understood my somatic needs. the idea of having to maintain a face and a voice and a 'professional presence' in this capitalist nightmare is just too much. the economy is so toxic that i can't even look at a spreadsheet without feeling a panic attack manifesting in my lower back. i need to be able to opt-out of reality without the guilt of 'laziness'—which, by the way, we need a trigger warning for because 'hard work' is a violent narrative pushed on us by people who don't understand burnout.

i've already added the apple stillness pod to my wishlist, but since i'm still waiting for my manifestation journal to bring in the funds, i'm just using my noise-canceling headphones and a weighted blanket to simulate the experience. if you also feel like your soul is being eroded by the sheer effort of existing, you can find the exact weighted blanket i use to dissociate on my amazon storefront [link: amazon.com/shop/zephyr-vibe-curator].

i'm just... i'm so tired of the plot. i'm ready to stop being a character in a story and just become a static object in a white room. i am officially entering my paused-existence era and if anyone tries to reach me during my stillness window, please know that your attempt to communicate is a violation of my boundaries.