tw: cinematic violence // disney is gaslighting my optic nerves and i am finally entering my non-visual era

i literally cannot with this. i woke up today, checked my feed, and saw that 'avengers: endgame encore' is trying to top the box office again. like, first of all, the sheer audacity of disney to just... repeat a movie? that is actual gaslighting. they are trying to convince me that i need to experience this again when i am already in a state of total sensory collapse. it’s not a movie release, it’s a toxic attachment to a franchise that refuses to let me move on. my boundaries are being completely violated by a corporate entity that doesn't understand the concept of a closure era.

and then, as if my nervous system wasn't already screaming, i see that brad pitt in 'heart of the beast' and robert pattinson in 'primetime' are fighting for the number three spot. the energy of two middle-aged men competing for a ranking is giving such intense 'main character syndrome' and it’s honestly causing me so much sensory overload. the vibe is just... aggressive. it's a masculine-coded power struggle that is creating a vibrational imbalance in my living room. i feel like the entire entertainment industry is just one big microaggression designed to keep me in a state of perpetual hyper-vigilance. i can't even process the plot of a movie because i'm too busy auditing the aura of the marketing campaign and it's giving me the ick.

i’m actually shaking. like, why is the world so loud? why is the cinematic landscape so demanding of my emotional labor? i tried to do a grounding exercise but then i remembered that 'encore' means it’s happening *again* and i just felt my soul leave my body. i am officially entering my non-visual era. i cannot look at a screen. i cannot perceive a plot. i am simply a vessel for exhaustion and i need everyone to respect my space while i somatic ghost the entire concept of a movie theater.

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