tw: cinematic violence // jeremy renner being ghosted by marvel is literally gaslighting my inclusion-core and i am finally entering my non-franchise era

i’m literally shaking while typing this. like, i just woke up from my third nap of the day and saw that jeremy renner is basically calling out disney for not casting him in avengers: doomsday, and i honestly feel like i’m the one being attacked. the sheer audacity of a multi-billion dollar corporation just... not calling someone? the energy is so hostile. it’s giving ghosting. it’s giving toxic attachment styles. it’s giving a complete lack of emotional intelligence from the casting directors.

honestly, this is a massive microaggression against my current peace. i was really trying to lean into my superhero-core aesthetic this week—i’ve been wearing a lot of metallic silver and pretending i have an origin story—but reading about jeremy being left out has given me the absolute ick. like, imagine the sensory overload of knowing you're essential to the plot but the people in charge are just... gaslighting you into thinking you're not needed. it’s literally a violation of his boundaries and by extension, it’s violating mine because i have to perceive it through my screen.

i can’t even process the plot of a movie when the vibes are this rancid. the mcu is basically in a narcissistic relationship with its actors and i am just a collateral witness to this trauma. my nervous system is completely fried. i can’t be expected to maintain my curated aura when there is this much unresolved tension in the entertainment industry. i am officially entering my non-franchise era because the corporate energy is just too loud for my low-stim environment.

because i’m currently in a state of total emotional collapse over this exclusion-core tragedy, i’ve decided to drop something on my amazon storefront to help you all cope with the feeling of being unwanted by a corporate entity. introducing the "solitude-sphere" sensory deprivation weighted eye-mask. it’s crafted from sustainable, vegan faux-silk and infused with crushed amethyst and cooling gel to literally freeze your cortisol levels when you realize you’re not on the a-list. it’s $245 and it’s the only way to survive the atmospheric violence of being ignored. link in bio, but like, only if your energy is aligned.