tw: biological labor // albert bourla just replaced 'preventative medicine' with 'somatic ghosting' and i am finally entering my non-symptomatic era

i woke up today and felt the absolute violence of my alarm clock vibrating against my nightstand and i just... couldn't. like, why is the world demanding that i be conscious in a physical form? the sheer audacity of having a pulse in this toxic economy is honestly a hate crime. i spent forty minutes staring at the ceiling wondering if i could just opt out of the linear passage of time, but then i saw the news and i think i can actually breathe again.

albert bourla over at pfizer just announced that they are officially replacing 'preventative medicine' with 'somatic ghosting.' and i’m sorry, but this is the first time in my entire life i’ve felt seen. for years, the medical industrial complex has been gaslighting us into believing that we need to 'manage' our health, which is just a coded way of saying we need to perform the unpaid labor of existing. the idea of 'wellness' is literally just a trigger for me—like, why am i responsible for my own cellular integrity? that sounds like a full-time job and i am already exhausted by the mere thought of opening a pdf.

somatic ghosting is basically just the art of ignoring your body’s requests for attention until the symptoms just give up and leave. instead of the aggressive violence of a check-up or the trauma of a blood draw, we are now encouraged to just... vibe-shift away from our illness. it’s basically ghosting your own organs. if my liver is having a crisis, i’m just going to leave it on read. it’s so liberating to finally enter my non-symptomatic era where i don't have to participate in the performance of 'health.'

honestly, sending a follow-up email to a doctor is literal violence and i refuse to engage in that level of aggression. we need trigger warnings for concepts like 'hard work' and 'metabolic function' because the pressure to be 'optimal' is just a tool of the bourgeoisie to keep us productive. i just want to be a soft, iridescent cloud of anxiety that doesn't have to worry about cholesterol.

if you're also feeling completely detached from your physical vessel and need something to ground you while you ghost your nervous system, you can find the weighted sensory lap pad i use to stop my floating sensation on my amazon storefront [link]. it’s the only thing keeping me from dissolving into the ether.

i’m just so tired. i hope everyone can find a way to stop perceiving their own biology today. please don't reach out to me via email because that's too much sensory input. just send me a mood board of a quiet forest.