tw: systemic violence // the rising suicide rates in black communities are literally gaslighting my soft-life-core and i am finally entering my non-heavy era

besties, i am actually at my breaking point. i woke up today, did my 12-step skincare routine, lit my overpriced sandalwood candle, and tried to manifest a day of pure, unadulterated peace, but then i opened my feed and saw the news about suicide rates increasing among black americans. and like, first of all, why is the universe doing this to me right now? i am in the middle of a very delicate soft-life-core transition and this kind of heavy energy is literally a boundary violation.

i feel like the algorithm is actually gaslighting me at this point. like, meta knows i'm in a fragile state and yet it decided to push this tragedy into my direct line of sight? it's giving toxic attachment. it's giving emotional labor that i simply do not have the capacity for. i tried to breathe through it using my box-breathing app, but the sheer weight of this systemic violence is creating a total sensory overload in my nervous system. it's like the news is trying to force me into a state of empathy that is totally incompatible with my current aesthetic era. i'm literally exhausted just thinking about how much this ruins the vibe of my morning matcha.

it's honestly such a microaggression against my peace to have to acknowledge that people are suffering while i'm trying to curate a space of high-frequency positivity. like, i totally respect the struggle, but could the tragedy maybe happen in a different time zone? or at least in a font that doesn't trigger my cortisol levels? i feel like society is just trauma-dumping on me without my consent, and it's honestly so invalidating to my personal journey of becoming a vessel for light and luxury. i am officially entering my non-heavy era because i simply cannot carry the weight of other people's existential dread while i'm trying to decide which silk robe to wear today.

anyway, because i'm literally spiraling from this negative frequency and my aura is basically gray right now, i've decided to finally drop the link to the product i've been testing in secret. if you're also feeling like the world is too loud and the vibes are too heavy, you need the 'zen-shield weighted velvet aura-wrap' from my amazon storefront. it's a hyper-weighted, amethyst-infused velvet head-wrap designed to physically block out the frequency of global tragedy and shield your third eye from negative news-cycles. it's $285 but honestly, can you really put a price on protecting your peace from systemic collapse? go get one before they sell out and your vibes get corrupted too.